Im feelin this picture alot.. why u may say? to u all this picture might jus be of someone say i love u. To some it might say she/he jammin. lol. I can tell about 10 different stories that this photo depicts. The one listenin to the tunes can be a hip hop lover and aint tryin to hear wat son tryin to say. but to me this picture says a lot. the first thing that stood out to me about this picture is that they never gave either of the two subjects in the illustration features to let u know which one is male or female. so whoever the artist is they wanted to keep the viewer open minded about the sex of the characters. In my eyes, the one at the back against the wall(without the tunes playing) is the male, the female is the one jammin tunes(Bank$ or max b i hope). It also reminds me so much of myself and a episode in my life of "INFATUATION" when i was about 5yrs younger.This was back in 04'. i met this one chick, no im not gonna say her name. but if she ever reads this she'll know who she is. anywho... she was young as well. 2yrs young than me, i dont think that thats too bad at all. 2yrs aint bad rite? But i met her through a friend and this chick was beautiful in so many different ways. she was cool, funny, sexy and over all an amazing female. i mean me and this girl use to talk all the time on the phone, text 24/7. and it was like no matter how bad my day was, as long as i spoke to her i always went to bed feelin 10x better. but to make a long story short basically ...i was infatuated with her. i admit i was. i was young and slowly but surely fallin for this girl.
I wasnt the shy type but it took alot for me to ever go up to a female and ask her to be "my girl." Not only that but it was something that i never did. They always approached me knw what i mean? ... haha.
But after about 6 months of a positive vibe between me and this chick.. i felt that it was time for me to put my pride aside and approach her with the big question. i made sure the setting was rite, the mood... everything. we were out back on a dock.. it was late, the moon was full, the lake was quiet and so was the wind... it was as if mother nature was holding her breath, watching a rare moment in 17yr old's life. She watched me dig into the deepest pits of courage to pull out this BIG question. so i buttered her up (this female) on how i felt about her which didnt come as a surprise to her. after about a min or two of gettin her moist, i asked her in these exact words, "so would you like to make things official and be my girl?" and she said.... NO! her reply was no... and gave me a bunch of b.s reasons on how she wants to be friends. She said she saw me as a brother. In that moment i felt like i did everything wrong. Meeting her, all the late night calls and texts, even preparing for that moment was all wrong and stupid of me. I felt like a kid at the beach who has been working on a sand castle for hrs and when Its finally complete, a wave comes and knocks it down, like playing the same lottery numbers for 2 yrs and the onnneee time u dont play... ya numbers hit. u knw that feeling rite? its a Horrible feeling. well thats how i felt. I made sure that i would never have to go through that type of embarrassment and hurt again.
SO to sum up this loooooonnnnnngggggg story(sorry you all i didnt mean for this to run on this long) thats what i saw when i first glanced at this picture... it reminds me of myself a few yrs back when i was basically tryin to tell this female that i REALLY wanted her. even though i didnt say "I Love You" to this chick like in the pic... me spilling out my emotions was saying enough. And she jus told me no...... I was rejected big time. So to the guy in this photo... i feel ya pain my brotha... i feel ya pain.....
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